November 2018 turned out to be an absolute terrible month for me. A toxic situation got worse and worse, work left me exhausted and writing got put on the back burner. As such, I did not complete my NaNoWriMo goals and while that is a failure, to me I don’t see it that way.
I’ve successfully done NaNoWriMo two years in a row, so I know I am more than capable of it. This year, life got thrown at me hard and it meant I had to step back from my favourite thing in the world. It sucked so much, I can’t even begin to describe how awful it felt to itch to write but either not have the time or not have the brain power. I pulled back from social media and didn’t create anything. But it was the right thing for me and the only way I could get through such a rough month.
Slowly, I’m getting back onto social media and creating content, I’ve also been getting some words out. I’m still struggling with what WIP I want to work on most right now, which is frustrating. I know work is still going to take a lot out of me this month because I work in retail and it’s the holidays, but I somehow know it won’t be as bad. I also know that come January I should be able to breathe again and get more content out there. I’m even considering making a patreon to release some short stories on, and maybe even some chapter stories.
Anyway, I don’t think I failed last month despite not winning NaNoWriMo. I think I succeeded in taking care of myself and honestly, that’s such an important thing to do. I may have taken steps back in my writing goals, but I’d rather that than take steps back in my mental health.